It has been a long while since I have written. I’ll say that I have never experienced such a profound reflection time in my life than these past 2 years, for me 2013 was the rocket. Amazing what life is teaching me and what I have learned. Ill confess that, it has been challenging, enlightening, happy, sad, angry, but ultimately faith & trust has permeated every level of my being I never knew existed. For some months I have wanted to write you, but my fingers felt stuck. My mind has been rapid with thoughts, ideas, and feelings to share with you. But everything in life has a perfect timing. I’m so thankful that I feel that right now this moment.
I will tell you that there are magical things in this life, they have happened to me. There are things that happened during my father’s time in the hospital and after. I confess that despite knowing that Gods magic runs through each one of us; I have a itch, a question I want answered “Why is it that there are children, people, animals, my own father; these amazing sweet, kind, good beings that I admire; why is it that some of these beings suffer?” How could this exist? Why did they have to endure something so painful when they are not deserving of such pain??
And then I stop and think on the word deserving. Perhaps that is the answer. I know with my entire being that God is the maker of heaven & earth and of infinite power and possibility, and I know that we are all his children and have his blood ruining through our veins. I know of only goodness, I know of only health, I know in his love for me for us, and in his power that he gives.
I want the answer to this with all my heart. Because I want every single living creature to flourish to be protected to be healthy mind, body, and soul. I wish to only know of wellbeing for everyone. And so the answer that I concluded as to why beings go through suffering; 1) They lack feeling deserving of wellbeing 2) They need to learn and get stronger in faith so they can understand how powerful they are. 3) God needs them in his realm more than here in physical. I know one day I will understand completely but I am happy with this response. It feels right to me.
I know Gods realm exists for so many reasons. I know of amazing and phenomenal things existing in this world. When my Dad was in the hospital, my family and I were all in his room reading. All of a sudden a chair that was across the room, starts to move. I couldn’t believe it. We couldn’t believe it. How could this happen, and why? It seems rather silly that the chair would move, but it did. Then next thing that happened the following day, my Dad and I were in the room and then, the bathroom door in his room started moving. Like someone was trying to open it. My Dad and I were in shock. I opened the door and there was nothing & no one. Whattt? We were left speechless. This was a new hospital we were in and of course we thought that it must either be a ghost or an angel. Either one, we knew it was something not of this realm. My Dad & I told my mom and brother what happened when they walked into the room and they thought we were dreaming of course. Then some hours later, my mom and I were sitting with my dad in the room and all of a sudden we both hear a huge raindrop fall. We realized that a huge raindrop had fallen on top of my head. I felt water on my head! We were drinking no water; there was no water in sight, not above nor below. Again we were left in awe. Perhaps some, at this point could be freighted of these strange and amazing incidents. But to me it felt so comforting, knowing that something else exists in this world that we could not see. It honestly felt like angels were just trying to get our attention to let us know that they were there with us. It’s kind of funny the way they went about it, but nonetheless, I know they were there. I felt a magical rush and knew that my Dad felt it too. The last that happened to me was a moment of déjà vu. I felt when this happened that everything that was happening, all that we were going through, us being in the hospital and Dad being sick, and our family being tightly together through this; was the way it had to be, it was supposed to be like this. That this was played out already, and that we were all taken care of, that we will all get through the roughest time of our families life.
I pray to reach at this very second every single being feeling pain, families going through any type of sickness, anyone that has cancer, I wish I could just eliminate all your worry, all fear, all sadness, all anger, all resentment, all doubt, all of your feelings that are hurt you and ingrain in you; EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE! Your health, your happiness, your blessings are possible!! There are other realms and things that are beyond compression, but it exists. You’re being healthy, happy, and whole exists. That vibrate illuminating version of you, that is calling you, deep down, please listen to it! It wants you so much to see the power you hold in your very core, that you are already well. That every pain and sickness is vanished. Kissed away.
I believe to succeed and conquer in your life is to always use your Mind & Words to: Heal, Prosper, and Bless!!!
If you haven’t heard the story of Leah Still, the 5-year-old daughter of Houston Texans' defensive tackle Devon Still, whom recently beat cancer. Here is the link: https://gma.yahoo.com/leah-still-credits-dad-devon-her-strength-beating-134056124--abc-news-wellness.html
Devon, the father of Leah, posted on Twitter:
“My advice to any family going through this battle: no matter how hard it gets, no matter what the doctors tell you, always remain positive! Speak victory into existence. Drop to your knees everyday and pray. I was never a big spiritual person but I always believed in God and knew who to turn to in the time of need. Keeping faith that God will see you through doesn't make the battle easier but it makes winning possible! It gives you back the hope that is stripped away from you every time you watch your kid endure the pain from the treatments and the bad news you often receive from the doctors.
Give your child's fight with cancer a purpose. Use it to raise awareness so that you can help all kids fighting this disease. No matter how big or small your platform/following is, you will reach that one family that just needs to know they're not alone in the fight so they don't give up!”
In this; I know with all my being that this will reach you! I send you a vast army of angels to comfort you, to being you peace, to bring you calm, to bring you hope, to bring you love, and most importantly to bring you the vision of the prosperous healthy amazing self that you are. You are never alone my sweet. Please don’t give up! Everything is going in your favor; you just have to take a leap of faith to see it! You will conquer everything you dream! You are healthy! You are whole! You are more than worthy! You are more than deserving! I say this because I know it! I say this because I love you dearly! Please Hold on!!! Help is on its way! I am celebrating your victory right now :)